I very disappointed about myself.I never expect my MA will be fail.In the end,I am the only one in the class to fail the exam.I really scared the feeling of re-sit for the paper.I feeling was so awful and terrible.I feel very shame on this moment,I cant accept it,why I am the one fail in the exam,it will make me loss my passions about this subject.
When I entered the class,I feel stress and I totally dont know what is taught by Miss Cecilia,it made me feel guilty,never expected I will fail it.What can I do for the next,is this I needed to change my style of study and be serious in class,pay full attention on the class.I couldn't play play anymore in the class,no hardwork really wont get good result,I even never expect I will get a first class,I just wish that all my subject mark in the average mark,that's only things I wish in my study.
Now only first year in my degree life,I already fail one paper.how can I successfully graduate from my degree course?I really no ideas about my future,now my brain was totally blank page.No hope,how can I rebuild my confident in myself.
I always promise to myself,I want to make my life full of positive energy and happiness.Now I fail the exam,suddenly I from the heaven jump into jail,the feeling really bad and I dislike myself.If I cant further and continuous my study,I will totally loss the courage and energy to continuous my love towards my study.I really dont want to give up about my Mr Lee.He was so perfect and I am so weak,if I cant graduate from my degree life,it mean that I will loss the opportunity to have a relationship with him.
I totally dont want this bad incident and things to happen in my life.Now my feeling was so depress until I cant faced myself,how can I faced my classmate,I totally feel look down to myself.I really dislike the feeling that things are out of my control.
Sometimes too positive thinking will also causes the bad things to happen.I should make it neutral a little bit,not that too positive towards everything in my life.
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